Yes, I tend to brag about how awesome it is but the only reason I do that is because I’m trying to convince myself that it’s awesome. I love being social and being around people but since I’m home schooled and I row I spend most of my day home or at crew. You can say crew is a social thing but I’m positive my team, or at least most of my team have something against me and think I’m annoying. The reason I talk a lot at crew is because it’s the only time I can. I have no one but my mom to talk to all day and most of the time she is out. So, I spend most of my day home alone and it sucks. I live off of other people, their emotions, beliefs, experiences, and ect. I don’t think anyone realizes that. I am honestly going absolutely crazy. I feel so alone. Yes, I know I’m not alone but you don’t understand what I’m going thru and how I feel right now. I miss being around kids my age and talking about everything. No one realizes how I feel. I am dying. I miss high school even though it was horrid. I just miss people. Yes, there are so many positives like graduating a year early that make all of this loneliness all worth it but still I miss being around people.